小魔鬼*

you move like one, act like one, ARE ONE. i can never imagine how spineless a guy can be. i bet the same thought is going through your head just like mine.

what have i seen in this person that allow us to be with each other for so long?

if you think that is shouting to you, then next time when people is giving you instructions on what to do you better listen and not just orhhhh your way through. or maybe if you don’t have a dictionary at home, go and ask your BFF what does group work mean. in case he cannot explain to you the proper term, i might as well just tell it to you.

it simply means to work together AS A GROUP.

but if you think you have done your part as a team member, then sorry to tell you that you’re only a team member, not a team maker. basically you will never make it big in life because you like to do things you think its done and just dump it to the others to evaluate if it suits the whole group.

if i was in the wrong, if i didn’t contribute to the group and i still have the guts to say all that to you, i would apologise. but sad to have to screw this into your mind, is that i have done my part for the group, even though not as much as the other two girls, but i have done my part as asked for their opinion. edited whatever they think is not right and try to help out as much as i could.

you have to work. so do i. you need to have your own life. so do i. so do the rest of us, but it seemed as though you both cannot spare some time out just to prefect this project with us. your life seems to be more important than us. your game every night seems to out-weight the project. your social life is like your everything. THEN WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU IN SCHOOL? you’re not a waste of space in this society. YOU’RE A WASTE OF EVERYONE’S TIME.

we’re keeping it quiet because we thought you guys would improve as the dateline gets nearer. but it seems to us as though you have taken us for granted and just dump everything to us. so do you think it is only fair to remove your name from the group since even though you did contribute some, most of it we were the ones improvising?

phwee~ i think i’ve said what i want to say, i doubt you would want to do project with me in the future, and i don’t think i would want to do it with you ever again. i think i would be so turned off to be the in same room as you are. sad thing is we share almost same group of friends so there is nothing we can do. but i would just keep my mouth shut and wait for people to judge. today hasn’t been a very good day. i think i’m getting on some people’s nerves. oh well.. this is ITE, where the populars in school last time becomes unpopular and disgusting. sounds a bit like menopause sehh..

ever wonder why people used to tell me how sweet he and i are, how they envy us, but there are none about you and me even though we’re together much longer?no wait, is there anything to envy about when you don’t even keep your very first promise?

why don’t you learn how to grow up before you start your finger pointing? keeping silent all the time doesn’t mean people allow you to step onto them and do whatever shit you wish to do. and for fuck sake, if you want to condemn me, you make sure everyone hates me, not dislike me. if not i will never leave the place. not when the only hump i meet on the road is such a small one like you.

i almost did something evil today. my intension was bad, but if it really happened, the consequences could be even worse. but you saved your own ass by walking back. so i didn’t have to be the evil force of the day. to those few who knows what was i going to do, please keep it to yourself. you can say its revenge or whatever, but when you stepped on my tail, i won’t make sure you pay back double. i will just be sure that you will get the pain i’ve gone through one day.

booked my BTT date. it is like so damn far from now. and i have a very very bad feeling its gonna be during the second year 1st term’s exam.  hope it doesn’t clash. if it does, oh then thats too bad..

im feeling sinister right now. is that how lonely people should feel when the feeling of loneliness gets even deeper than their souls?

end of story. you’re the worse thing that has ever happened to me. you make me feel sick!

i’ll just sit around and wait for you to miss me.

no more blogging. my head hurts.

he came back. i was suppose to be happy. but i wasn’t. i don’t know what i want from him now. was it suppose to be strings or no strings attached?

oh good. i know you must be smirking at the screen right now. seeing all the retributions coming back to me.

presentation finally done. this is the second time in my life i have felt i’m really ugly.

tell me what should i do to understand what you want.